vol. 1 : life lately
It's been awhile since I took the time to write. Truthfully, there is quite a bit of change happening in my life, and I'm acclimating myself to all of it. I'll share more about that in the coming months, but for now, know this: it's all good things and things I've wanted for a very long time.
With all the change, though, I've been thinking more and more about the time we use to look inward and figure out why we do the things we do. Do you ever feel like you're going through the motions of your day-to-day life only to look back and think, but why did I do that?
With the amount of change happening, I've been thinking more and more about the habits I've formed and what they really mean. In a lot of ways, I think sometimes we use our habits as distractions from what we need to really work on or listen to. Sometimes it's really hard to just sit and be quiet with our thoughts.
Maybe this is all a little too woowoo-too deep-too philosophical for a Saturday morning when I'm only two cups of coffee in...but, I've been taking the last couple of days to be quiet with myself. Turn off my phone when needed, and really listen. Truthfully, I've been ignoring my inner thoughts for awhile; I'll share more about that soon, including why I'm ending my vegetarian lifestyle.
But I'll end with saying: you do you. So much of our current lives are built on what will other people think. What will people think if I never get married or have kids or raise goats on a farm in Vermont? What will people think if I quit my job and travel the world till I decide to stop? What will people think if I truly love my job as a nanny or server or SAHM? You do you.
In the meantime...
Wild Geese - a poem
And this... just reminds me of Connor:
I’ll be there, my darling, through thick and through thin
When your mind’s in a mess and your head’s in a spin
When your plane’s been delayed, and you’ve missed the last train.
When life is just threatening to drive you insane
When your thrilling whodunit has lost its last page
When somebody tells you, you’re looking your age
When your coffee’s too cool, and your wine is too warm
When the forecast said, “Fine,” but you’re out in a storm
When your quick break hotel, turns into a slum
And your holiday photos show only your thumb
When you park for five minutes in a resident’s bay
And return to discover you’ve been towed away
When the jeans that you bought in hope or in haste
Just stick on your hips and don’t reach round your waist
When the food you most like brings you out in red rashes
When as soon as you boot up the bloody thing crashes
So my darling, my sweetheart, my dear…
When you break a rule, when you act the fool
When you’ve got the flu, when you’re in a stew
When you’re last in the queue, don’t feel blue
’cause I’m telling you, I’ll be there.
-- I'll Be There for You by Louise Cuddon